Door Open

"can you close your mouth when you are coughing?"
"its really loud and i cant sleep at all... heart pain..."

Heart pain because of what?
Will someone let me stay at your house without blaming me for coughing.?
i just dun feel i m part of the family anymore...

yesterday i a bad bad day...

First of all, my cough is not recovering.
This cough have cause me lots of trouble.

i hate the look of my family that they are looking at me now...
i m guilty enough but those eyes are very scary
I felt like i shouldnt be in this family...

memories just appear on what i m in this family...
Hate it...
Arghh

have u ever been in a situation that u are really busy n u just to focus ur work like for 2 months?
yes? No?

So u tell ur frens..
Will they understand?
So the first thing u want to do after that hectic and sad months are to find them but yet they neglect u...
It just hurt me so much to know that they doesn't understand my tiredness and sadness that i been through....

I dun need them to be there for me but i just need a listener...
Is it wrong to focus on my FYP that much?
i haven even properly sit down n talk with my family for a month!

within january till now, i only see them for like 10days?
They didnt even msg me for a support why do i need to msg them back?
Why do i need t make the first move?
Its a disappointment.

Family is still the best....

its quite a disappointment
i didnt realise until today...

cant believe it at all...
i just felt like i m being cheated for the whole lot time..

I m ok to get used by pple at times. but this is just too much...

this is disappointing...

bestie is at next door.
I want to chat with them...
Too bad i cant...

When can we properly sit down n chat again?
dunno...

Shout Out to Adrian!!!!
hehehehahahahohoho
all e best~~!!!
Finally finally...
LOL

i m tired..
Cant i just rest for a while?
No... My fyp is not done yet...
Whats more?
i have to prepare for my portfolio right after that..
Greatzzz

Chinese New year is coming...
n yet i cant even celebrate...
i haven even buy my new clothes...

i want to go out
i want to meet my friends...
i want to exercise!!!

Cant i just do them now?
why is the last lap always so difficult ....

i just cant stop feeling down...
Btw.. i just took at pic on my tank...
kind of dirty, miss feeding them and cleaning my tank...
I just miss everything!!!

Yeap they are dirty..
i know...
Hp cam sucks.. cant focus...
but hoe u can see the little dots.. they are my baby shrimps
haha~~